A small step

I am encouraging my wife to dress more provocatively when we go out together. A little cleavage goes a long way. We try to live 24/7 in this lifestyle but it becomes very difficult. However, I believe for this to progress further, there needs to be a power-exchange that exists even when we are forced back into the vanilla world.

My wife needs to feel like she is in charge of EVERYTHING. I stress this because if my wife feels that it only relates to a certain aspect of our relationship, she feels less empowered to act solely in her interest in other aspects of our life. The key, I believe, is to have this power reinforced constantly. Its like working-out, once you stop and take a week or 2 off, you have to really climb up a hill to get back to where you are.

What I am trying to do is for my wife to humiliate me more. Why? Well, I believe that she needs to loose a little respect for me and realize I am not at her same level. This can be done subtlety when involved with people who do not share the same feelings. Ordering me around in front of people so they get the feeling that I at her service works. They shake heir head and smirk at me as I do as I am told. My wife then feels empowered.

When alone, I try to be subservient. However, I sometimes falter which discourages my wife and once again it’s like climbing a hill to get back to where we were. I need to really work on this. I am gradually turning over the financial control to my wife. It’s hard since she is involved in so much other things that it’s been a struggle. With this it has been hard for my wife to let go of her domestic chores. I have told her to stop doing that and concentrate on our books. She agrees but somehow we never get to do it. I believe once my wife has stopped doing the household chores and begin doing the checkbook, it would make a difference. I've also suggested to her that she removes my name from the deed of our house, leave my name on the mortgage and then become sole owner of our house while we pay for it.

I really strongly believe the ultimate in humiliation and thrill is cuckolding and toilet service. As for cuckolding, we have fantasized and I have eaten my cum from her to show her my desire to be her oral boy-toy only. I provide oral service to her pussy, ass and any other part that excites her. Her orgasm is the prize with my orgasm possibly not occurring. This has empowered her. However to make this cuckolding a reality has been a struggle. I have a burning desire for it but my wife is hesitant to make it a reality. I want to be submissive to both my wife and her lover. Being bisexual, I have no problem with that. That is why I hope to find some local normal people who practice this. If we can socialize and become friends, I really believe my wife will then understand.

As for toilet service, I see no other measure that directly puts me a step lower. As she looks at me and opens up the flow and I begin to swallow, it immediately puts me a level underneath. I have recently taken this to the next level. I have purchased a toilet chair, she sits and looks underneath and has begun to realize how pathetic I am. She has begun to fart and piss openly. The last time we did it, she said she had to do more, with a little encouragement, she opened up over me. I didn't swallow, but just having it on me as she watched me, was all that was needed to drop me down a level....

It’s definitely a journey but one worth taking.....